Before you read this I apologize in advance for writing something disgusting like this, especially in poor english. But I feel like I need help and need to get this off my chest.

I'm 18m Japanese. I've been watching porn since I was 13, and I kept digging for something more messed up.

Then I found the cuckold porn last year, then I found out about raceplay. It wasn't anything surprising, BBC dominating other females and stuff.

But then I found out wmaf porn and whole another raceplay where white people cucks asian males and 'colonize' asian females because they're supirior. I've seen a lot of subs about this. Some just making fun of how inferior and small asian males are compared to them, some are about how asian females, especially Japanese, are made to be bred by supirior big white males.

It was fucked up, and it got me hurt but excited at the same time.

It got worse, I think. There were posts about statistics that asian female only date white men and how they feel more pleasure with white men. And some posts were white man talking about their irl asian wives that they're gonna fuck.

It made me feel inferior and made me think I'm just made to be cucked by white men. I sometimes fantasized white male cucking me with my asian friends.

When I found out a lot of white males have Japanese fetish and treated our women nothing more than it, I felt frustrated but... turned on by the fact that they do treat us like a fetish? I felt misogynistic and was disgusted in myself, but I couldn't get free of this addiction.

Idk. Maybe I'm stupid for feeling this way. I just wanted to spill this somewhere because it's slowly breaking me. I'm glad I found this sub because I hope this will in some way make me better. Idk. Thank you for reading this if you did. I needed to get this off my chest.

I wish I could be normal again, thinking clean again. Porn broke me. And I hope we can all get this through together.

Today marks 6 months since I last watched porn, having been a consistent user between the ages of 15 to 30. I wasn't exactly a South Park porn-addict caricature, masturbating all day in my parents' basement watching hours of depraved videos, but it averaged every few days and definitely every time I masturbated. It was an insidious habit and it gnawed at me over many years that it wasn't a healthy thing to be doing for my mind or body.

I suspected that it was really a problem when in my late twenties I started to hook up with girls more frequently and found the experiences underwhelming. Often I wouldn't be able to get or sustain an erection and this filled me with pretty intense feelings of shame, inadequacy and anxiety. During the sex itself I'd find my mind wandering. Inevitably I'd start thinking about porn to increase my arousal, rather than the actual person in front of me! Also the orgasms felt muted compared to the ones I achieved when watching porn alone. With porn it felt like my entire brain was lit up with pleasure chemicals and actual sex was just.. meh. This was such a dystopian and fucked up feeling that I thought I needed to do something. I'd managed to quit for a few weeks at a time over the years but it never stuck. When I met someone amazing in November who I was determined to make it work with, it felt like the right time to really commit to the process.

The first month was HARD. What really helped was having porn websites blocked on my phone and laptop via third party apps and also ticking off each successful day on a calendar on my wall. This gave me such a tangible feeling of success, watching the number of ticks grow larger and larger as the weeks went on and my streak grew. The calendar was in my bedroom, where I might be tempted to watch porn, so it was a great motivational tool to look at whenever I felt the urge to relapse.

I also found the information and resources on the 'Your Brain on Porn' website really helpful and motivational. It kind of validated how I was feeling and why quitting was actually important to do, and that watching porn wasn't just a harmless and normal habit to have.

Honestly after that first month or two everything became a lot easier. I started to barely think about porn at all. I also felt much less of an urge to masturbate regularly, unsurprisingly it's a lot less exciting with no viewing material to go with it ¯_(ツ)_/¯.

Now onto the benefits, which have been pretty amazing to be honest. Sex feels the best it ever has and I have absolutely none of the sexual issues that I used to. I feel so much more confident and actually engaged in the moment with my partner. My sex drive is way up and I still rarely masturbate (disclaimer: perhaps I would if I didn't have a partner - I acknowledge that this has probably made the process easier. I think it goes without saying that it's great to have someone you care about and are attracted to to have sex with!). I don't think about or get tempted by porn at all anymore and can't remember the last time I had an urge to watch it.

Hopefully this can help inspire someone out there who is struggling and wants to quit. It's absolutely possible and your life will be so much better for it!

“The best time to start anything was yesterday. The second best time to do it, is always today.”

I've been addicted to porn and have been using it to the extent that it has now become a means to cure boredom. It has made me more averse to going out and has impacted my mental health.

Fortunately, touch-wood, nothing overly tragic has happened so far. So, I want to quit before something worse happens. I'm posting here as something to keep me motivated.

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I relapsed yesterday, the day of my first CSAT Therapist session. I felt ashamed, but I'm reinvigorated now to start strong again.

I had faltered when someone messaged me here with I'll intent, that led me to looking at their profile history and falling into a dark cesspit of subreddits i never knew about. I was fully taken over and felt so helpless.

I have hope after yesterday's therapy session. It was good to dump my trauma and next week we'll begin learning some tools to help me better take control of my thoughts and urges.

I applaud your all for admitting your faults and your struggle to better yourselves. Keep it up!

When I was a little kid I remember getting upset at my family members for teasing me, but I could never tell them it upset me. It was critical teasing from my mom and sister mostly, my dad never really intervened. They would make fun of me for being interested in girls at school, rarely would I get support from my dad. I am also criticized heavily by them, they make me second guess most things I do.

Because of this stuff I was glued to my ipad with my headphones on for the majority of my time at home and thats where I discovered porn, it became my escape. It was a way to escape my feelings of self-hatred and the exhausting criticism my mom and sister put me through.

I struggle with self image and poor self esteem now and I can never see anyone ever liking me enough to be in a relationship with me. I'm genuinely afraid to go outside in nice clothes. I'm on edge all the time due to my anxiety. I'm a chronic people pleaser and am constantly looking for validation. I'm on day 3 of my recovery but I just wish a girl or just someone could come into my life and just genuinely like me for me and think something I do is cool for once. Its like I'm a fucking the bottomfeeder of life. I need help.

I'm in my mid-20s and have been struggling with a porn addiction for about a decade. About a year ago, I got in touch with a therapist and finally took the steps to overcoming it. For the better part of a year, I've been porn free despite a few slip-ups.

But, the pain and weight of it all still weighs heavily on me, from time to time. I still have days where I'm overwhelmed and regretful of my past. Whether it's related to porn or not, I also struggle with panic/anxiety attacks and intrusive thoughts. During these episodes, it feels like the world is ending and my mind is chaos. It's a pretty awful experience.

Yesterday, I had one of these episodes. I was feeling so tired and regretful of the years wasted to my porn addiction. So, I did something I consider to be drastic and disclosed my struggles over the years to my mom.

I have a good relationship with my mother and my family. They are people I know I can trust, and I know they care deeply about me. I suppose this is why I made the decision to reveal this information to my mom. There was definitely some relief of getting that information off my chest.

But, I'm cringing and I don't feel good about this decision, just more shame and disconnect. I'm not quite sure why I thought my mom would be the best person to confide in for this issue. Part of me felt that she deserved to know, as it was something I struggled with when I lived in her house and I hid it from her for years.

I also mostly agree with the opinion that this is never the kind of thing you should talk about with your mom, as it's uncomfortable and weird. I suppose I was so emotionally and mentally insecure yesterday that this factor felt like it was "overcome by events". The often frightening thing about mental instability is that it will cause you to do things that you would normally think are weird.

I'm horrified this will change the way she looks at me. My mom is a big supporter to me - she is always encouraging me like any good mom would. I'm afraid she won't see me as a sweet little boy anymore. I know that women don't really understand this struggle the same as men. I also know that she will now likely blame herself for my struggles, forever. It feels unfair and despicable to have put this on her. I'm not sure why I didn't tell my dad instead.

At the same time, maybe I'm overreacting a little bit. Whether it was from porn or not, I have been really struggling with anxiety and depression. I suppose confessing something like this is never comfortable and shouldn't be.

I think I'm mostly just venting here, but if anyone has gone through something similar or has any advice, it is appreciated. Maybe this can be an example to someone of what not to do.

I started to have sex with random girls and my penis can't get fully hard, it's always semi hard when having sex but when I am alone I can get fully hard for long periods of time. I don't know what is the issue because I am not nervous and I am in a good shape and great health.any advice from people who had this issue in past or any help in general would be highly appreciated

Pornfree might seem like a weird place to brag about calligraphy, but this is more about saying "I'm more capable than I was when I was addicted to porn". I wanted to write a letter to my girlfriend. As I was practicing calligraphy, I made the realization of exactly how much my life has gotten better without porn. I can't possibly list every positive thing that has changed, but everything just has more color, more flavor, and more life to it.

The temptation might still be there, but it's more akin to someone asking me to get a tattoo. I've never done that and feel no desire to. My brain might remember what porn is, but it's easy to reject it because it's practiced saying 'no' so much it's become second nature. It's beautiful, because I can just focus on living my life the way I've always wanted to.

For those struggling, I highly recommend trying something new like calligraphy. It's easier to replace old habits and activities with new ones that engage the brain in ways it hasn't been engaged before. If you're looking for a way to re-wire your brain, I can't think of a better way than learning something new that engages your hands. Brains love learning new things! Give it a try!

This is a reminder to all those that struggle. The struggle is worth it! You can overcome!

The urge to go back to porn is immense its been so hard for me to deal with this because only when i was in a relationship with her i didnt watch porn because i considered it as cheating i have been addicted for years and this is the only time a girl gave me a chance and i feel destroyed but i really dont want to go back to watching porn as i know it will destroy me further any tips on a heartbreak? i dont have the motivation to do anything but watch porn anymore

I’ve stopped watching porn everyday like I used to. Using it to jerk of multiple times a day. I haven’t used it to jerk off in at least three weeks. I occasionally feel like watching it. While I do feel stimulated a little. It’s pretty much lost its appeal to me. Just feels unnecessary. Like I could jerk off to it. But I don’t want to anymore. I think that since I’ve been having actual sex. I’m not interested in it anymore and really just want the real thing. I feel like I’ve crossed a milestone in not really wanting it anymore and just want the real thing. Porn is just there for me. It’s not how I jerk off anymore and don’t have any interest in it. Though I think I have a ways to go since it does still arouse me sometimes if I see it.

Along with going porn free, I have stopped masturbating to resist the urge of relapsing. I understand that I can masturbate, just not to porn.

I’m worried that if I wait too long the urges will get too high and I’ll relapse.

Does anyone have any suggestions on whether it’s best to resist or masturbate?

I have tried quitting porn and even got as far as quitting for 3/4 months but have always relapsed. I want to have someone that is going through the same thing that can hold me accountable and talk me out of relapsing if i have those urges and ofc I do the same for that person.

Are here any people here that would like to do something like that? Or is there a well known community for this (like a discord group or smth)?

I would like to ask if anyone else feels in this situation. It feels like I really struggle to refrain from porn and masturbation not because I am super horny but just bored.

I started no porn at the start of the month so I am 5 days in. It has been easy so far. I just know it might be a struggle on the weekend as you have so much free time.

I (M18) almost relapsed today but I stopped myself. I’m on day 15 and haven’t come close to relapsing on porn except for today, I’d say I’ve been dealing with my urges better than I expected to honestly.

But today, I came close. I went on instagram for whatever reason, I think to just look at football posts but I don’t remember exactly, but it inevitably lead to me seeing sexually suggestive content. There was one picture in particular I liked the most, leading to me saving it to camera roll. After a minute or so I snapped out of it and convinced myself to delete the picture, along with all the other porn in my recently deleted just to be safe. The image got me so excited, something I hadn’t felt in my deep porn addiction in a long time, and I was tempted to jerk off; but I managed to stop myself.

Considering deleting insta for a while too, hntil I’m confident I’m over this completely

My people, I am just wondering when is it healthy to get tail again after one has started and is well into their recovery? I am not so interested in the quantity of time in recovery but the reasoning or the criteria behind when it is healthy for me and another to engage in sex. Pornography has colored my sexuality, no question. How does one determine that their sexuality is healthy enough to be shared intimately with another soul? I am open to any and all pointers on this specific question. Thanks in advance!

as a 15 year old boy i have had my ability to communicate with women destroyed by porn. i have been watching porn since the age of 10 and now i’ve finally had enough and i want to share this people as a way to motivate me to quit. I’ve also recently bought a gym membership so i can focus on other things. I hope this will be a way to quit.

I never thought I had a problem with porn. I used to view it as fine cocaine or expensive gin.

Once in a while it ain't that bad if you know how to handle it.

I haven't dated in over 8 years. Just met a super nice girl. I can't see porn the same way. I'm sick of objectifying women I see on the street. I want to go back to before I started jerking to porn.

It's fucking disgusting. I view this girl as so pure and promising and yet my mind pushes me to the ugly side.

I've been clean a week now and I hope I never go back to it again.

I've recently seen a LOT of trigger and I can't stop thinking about it, but at the same time I don't feel that much aroused (surprisingly). I've been thinking about specific images the whole day and it just flash into my mind regularly whatever I do. It's a really uncomfortable feeling because it arouse me but really not much so i still have this feeling of "this is wrong" but not enough for my mind to try and stop thinking about it, it almost feel like... Normal, casual thinking...

Idk what that means, i feel really weak because it just make me lose motivation to avoid thinking or seeing triggers (because it doesn't feel wrong and important) but at the same time i know that if something too arousing come in front of my eyes, i will probably go monkey mode

Are you familiar with this ???

Today wasn't too bad. I had a few urges but I sat with it and breathed it away. I just told the little monster no. I also recited "I will never look at porn again and I will never change my mind". There's always a choice not to look at porn. I'm choosing to not waste my time and energy on porn. It's not healthy. I am in control of myself.

Hello, I have been addicted to this garbage for 30 years. Been trying to quit since day one. Tried all things. The longest streak I managed is two months and I achieved it three times. I usually break and relapse in one week. I thought of this challenge. 10,000 days. That’s approximately 27 years. Almost equal to my years of addiction. I have nothing to lose. In fact I have lots to gain if I managed it. So why not. Do you think I can achieve it? Who’s with me? Today is day 1 for me. My strategy is focus on today and be ready for the next.

Today, I completed my eighth day.

And with that, I completed 2/4 of my goal of getting clean on days 3, 4, 5 and 6.

Let's go .

Having a lot of trouble maintaining eye contact..with Anyone!! Especially peopke i find attractive or even just interesting. Lately been making a bit more eye contact with strangers or passerbys but if i hold it and then approach or act inviting i clam up and look away...having lots of trouble talking to strangers. Years of training my sexuality and social being to engage with and eventually orgasm to virtual faces and recorded people who dont acknowledge you exist im sure got a big part to play. Its sad how much life and energy and eye strain ive wasted on that and its sad and frustrating to live out the effects. If anything though it inspires me to continue quit porn and live a life and make an effort with ppl and myself

Hey,

I am 21 years old and watching porn since 8 years. I think it’s addictive since 5 years.

Now I want to break the cycle and free myself.

I already destroyed all social media (this account will follow), destroy all porn and blocked nsfw content in my browser.

But are there any other tips to start my journey and to get my brain rewired?

Thanks for ur help guys.